Okay, so yes it’s been a really long time since I been on here but my last postings, to refresh my memory as well as yours, were about me feeling confused and frustrated with shopping and such with generally how my new size 2 was a pain. I continued to search for stores that carried professional looking clothing in the size 2 but wasn’t having any luck and plus, as I mentioned before, my tail bone dug into the tub and blah blah blah. So I decided rather than working with it, I’d set out to gain back the weight I’d lost (pre hernia surgery) since that was a good healthy weight and one that allowed for easy shopping, fullness in my face, etc. So I am happy to report that I have since last post gained about 10 lbs. It’s been a mixed bag. All of the above things are much easier (funny how a teeny 10 lbs can do that huh?) but I am really wrestling with my inner voice. That former fat girl voice is raging telling me how fat my thighs are and so on. It’s so crazy because I have to always be bringing myself back to ground zero; reality by counteracting these thoughts. Those folks that says weight loss doesn’t fix everything are SO right. I have lost a ton of weight but still struggle with seeing myself as fat even if you’re not anymore. I’ve been eating with abandon and it’s been nice although I’ve had quite a few tummy aches along the way because of course I’m eating things that don’t agree with the new plumbing but the process has been great. =) Now I am about 122 -ish pounds and a size 4 and looking to stay in this range. My face is fuller which gives a more youthful look (round cheeks anyone?) and my clothes are fitting nicely again with some shape to my breasts, rear end and thighs again. Overall I’m pretty happy with it but trying to always keep in mind that I’m not fat and that I can stop pigging now because otherwise the weight gain will continue in which case we’ll have a problem…..an unwanted problem. Don’t want to undue all the hard work I’ve done. Just thought I’d update you all. Hope your holidays were fantastic and that you are realizing your dreams. Me, I’m taking it 1 day at a time. 
Peace and love.
Mandy
